Love, or is it?

Hello ladies and gents. I know it's after 2 a.m. here in Cali, but I have been thinking a bit about this topic I'm posting about.

Since Valentine's Day is vastly approaching, I know there are a number of you out there whom have that one special person you choose to spend the day with. Anywho, I've always wondered if it's at all possible to love more than one person at the same time? Whether it be current lovers, or someone from your past. Is it at all possible? Would you be considered a bad person for loving more than one person at the same time?

See, for a long time I always thought it was wrong to love more than one person. I always figured that once a person was gone from your life after being in a relationship, that whatever love you had for them was gone, too. I guess not. Well, I know in my case, that whatever love I've had for relationships in my past were just that, and I moved on and found love with someone current. Sometimes I feel conflicted that I still have feelings for more than one person. I feel like not only am I cheating myself out of just loving one person, but cheating them all out of having my full attention and emotions. Won't lie, it sucks. And there are times I don't know if I'm in love or not anymore, or what it's supposed to be like.

I've always thought of love as being this one emotion that just sweeps you off your feet. But when I was with my last relationship *name withheld for personal and private reasons*, I began to realize that love I experienced was much bigger than what I initially thought. Too bad that it was prematurely cut short, and I haven't felt the same way since. I just hope that one day that same feeling can come back. What I felt was like this song of Jill Scott that I love. Here's some of the lyrics:

When we first met
I was surprised to get
That feeling, that feeling
The kind that don't wash away with soap
So sweet to me, Ooh. The kind of feeling I need
To get me through my darkest days
For you, I prayed
WHAT YOU DO IS CRAZY BABE
NOT LIKE YOU BELONG IN AN ASYLUM, CRAZY BABE
LIKE THE SUN IN THE MORNING, THE MOON AT NIGHT
LIKE THE RAIN FALLING FROM THE SKY
LIKE THE TREES GROWING FROM THE GROUND
I'M ASTOUNDED BABE
BY YOUR LOVE FOR ME
AND YOU'RE TOUCHING ME
AND YOU'RE TRUSTING ME
LIKE YOU DO... WOO WOO, WOO WOO, WOO WOO

-Jill Scott
"Not Like Crazy" from Beautifully Human: Words and Sounds Vol. 2

Every time I hear that song, it reminds me of the time when I did feel the kind of love that was unlike any other. I felt like my heart was open and caring. I'm not so sure anymore. One day I hope to get it back. And when I do, I don't want to lose it.

So if you have someone out there that you truly love, and you feel like you and that person were brought together for a reason: DON'T BE FOOLISH, AND LET THEM WALK OUT OF YOUR LIFE. Love them unconditionally. Even if they get on your nerves, get on theirs. LOL. I'm just playin. But on a serious note though, ladies and gentlemen. Take care of each other. There's too much love lost over dumb shit, and it needs to stop. We are breaking up families every single day and thinking nothing of that shit, because we are too damn selfish and set in our own ways to think past what we want.

If Barack and Michelle Obama can keep their marriage tight like they do for almost 20 years, any one of us can do it. It's all a matter of choosing the RIGHT person for us. And what I mean by "right" is being able to determine that one person whom is comparable to yourself. Not compatible, comparable. Those two words do make a damn difference. If you don't think so, look in the dictionary. LOL.

This is 2009, let's start by taking the time to get to know a person, so that way you can weed out the garbage and find the real thing. They are out there, it ain't hard to miss. Just don't look too hard, you may miss your blessing in disguise. Trust and believe that your "one" may not look like the proverbial shiny big box under the Christmas tree, but the gift is just as great none the less. Let love be a goal for everyone this year. And if you find it, more power to you. If not, don't give up. Keep trying. Trust and believe your "one" is out there in the world looking for you.