Revelation at 30

Hey ladies and gents, it's ya girl Untouched Jewel.

As I'm sitting here typing my little fingers away, I'm shedding tears. Yes, tears. Of sadness and joy. Why, you may ask?! Because now the light of self-discovery has finally brightened and a weight is being lifted off my shoulders. For the past 12 years, my life has been nothing more than an organized mess. I thought I had my life for the next 10 years mapped out at 18...well, that didn't turn out so well. My string of luck was bittersweet. The plus side was I went to college. The minus: I became a mother at 19, and didn't know a bit more about sh** about birthing let alone raising babies. I had to step to the learning curve real quick.

I won't even go into my share of screwed off relationships. They all start off like the match made in heaven, but end up the relationship from hell. And my last relationship, was like I was seriously being "Punk'd". No matter how hard I tried to make it work, it continued to fall into shambles, until some sh** really hit the fan: HE GOT WITH SOMEONE ELSE, AND FAILED TO TELL ME. Then to add insult to injury, he married her. Sounds like a heck of a life story, huh? SMH. I can't front like it was all his fault, because I played some part in my own relationship's demise, too. I didn't learn to let go sooner, because I was stuck in trying to rekindle what wasn't supposed to be anymore.

Now that I am 30, I'm ready to embrace newness, happiness, self awareness ('cause I was stuck in la-la land for a cool one), and most definitely pressing forward to bigger and better things. I want to finally embrace success and being a successful person. I'm so tired of holding myself back from doing something different and going against the grain, that now, I have done something to add a little spice to my life...I got a tattoo. That's right, I got officially inked as a milestone to myself that change isn't always bad. And with change, comes new possibilities. I want those things that I have desired in my life, but now need to find a way to come out of my own comfort and laziness of just being mediocre, average or at the bottom of the totem pole. Why not strike while the fire is hot and raring to go?!

Although ladies and gents, I leave behind my past that has so many memories in it, I'm walking into a path of greatness and challenge in my future, and it's up to me to step up to the plate and accept what I should  and can be doing. It's all up to me to now further take the rest of my life into my own hands. Sly and the Family Stone titled their song with the best saying: "You can make it, if you try".




Until Next Post,
Peace and Blessings,
Untouched Jewel