Hello ladies and gents. I finally have a chance to sit down at a computer and write this out. When I first started writing this blog, I believed this was a chance to get my voice out (in writing of course, lol) and say whatever it is I feel. But of course this being part of the world wide web, I'm not able to say exactly everything.
Anywho, I titled this post what it was, because I gotta keep it 100 with y'all...I'm at an emotional breaking point, and I feel like I'm gonna shut down at any time. I know some of you guys reading this are like: "This broad done truly snapped!" Well...no. I will say this: when there are life-changing events that happen in a person's life, everybody has a way of dealing with the problem(s). Some people have a way of dealing with a problem by letting it go like water off a duck's back. Well, I'm not one of those type of people. I try not to feel anything, but since I'm a Cancer (sue me), I feel alot--good or bad.
Of course I wrote my previous post about forgiving and what not, but even with the forgiveness, I still feel sadness. Sadness of the fact that the person I grew close to is no longer around. Sure we had good times, but they decided to do something different, and it in turn left me very hurt and disturbed. From time to time, I cry. As much as I hate it, it happens. There are days where I'm in a somber and sad mood. I tried doing things to help me take my mind off of alot of what has happened, but it doesn't seem to help. For the past month, I have thought about going to a counselor or psychologist to help me shake this sad feeling, because I can't deal with it.
I just hope somewhere along the line I can at least for myself get past what I'm feeling. If it's possible to accomplish this task without help, fine. If not, to the leather couch I go.
Until Next Post,
Peace & Blessings,
Untouched Jewel
6 comments:
I hope you give yourself some props, just from saying help may be the best way to go (in this case, counseling). You're being truthful to yourself about what's in your mind and heart, and that in itself is a victory :-)
Hello,
You've already crossed a bridge, you're talking about it. That's Big!
Be forewarned that there's a difference from being sad behind an event and being clinically depressed. Be very careful of who you lend your mind to. Like any profession there are star players and there are bench warmers. If you do seek some kind of counseling, check them out like you would of anything that you respect. If someone says they're "good", ask them to qualify that.
That profession can be like shade tree automobile mechanics ...."try a little of this and a little of that". Remember, you will be coming in the door telling them that you need help, so they don't have to fix anything, but they can cause harm.
If through your journey someone (doctor) offers you a pill, I suggest that you ask a load of questions. It is a business and therefore they are, in a sense, the new drug dealers.
Just my little two cents.
I've been where you are, sis. It takes time to regain the things that have been hurt, like your emotions and confidence. I believe counseling is a great tool to getting back in the swing. There's a comfort in being able to dump your issues on an impartial party. Try scheduling a session, if it's not for you it doesn't have to carry on. Try not to suffer in silence. I promise you, the thing about "going through stuff" is that you are moving to another phase of life, it's the people who chose to stay in less desirable situations/moods who end up miserable. You can do it, take your time and you'll see better days in no time. Much love!
Nothing wrong with you saying you need help. If you can get the counseling. You did the first part and raised your hand.
I think it's a really wonderful step forward when you realize you may need help in coping...I wish you nothing but the best of blessings on your journey for happiness.
I believe that we can ALL use some counseling.
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