Hey ladies and gents, it's ya girl Untouched Jewel in the buildin! I gotta tell y'all it's .2 degrees cooler than hell here in Cali. I'm already having female issues, and now the heat got me on a "Code 10, man down" kind of feeling. LOL.
Anywho, I'm writing this, because...well...I met someone. I won't go into details about whom this person is (i.e. name, profession, etc.), because I gotta keep some things to myself, right?! Yeah, so I met this person around the beginning of April, and he and I cliqued pretty well. So we have talked and gotten to know each other pretty good thus far, and throughout that time of talking, he sent me a text message and told me he wanted to make me his boo. I had to do a double-take, because I couldn't believe what I was reading. So then I went on to ask him if he was serious. Now don't get me wrong, I like the guy, but his approach took me by surprise. So once it dawned on me that this guy is really feeling me, I began to grin harder than the chessire cat on Alice in Wonderland.
He's been such a sweetheart, and really decent in his approach with me. He's not no rooty-poo dude that has a gang of kids, doesn't work, or has a bunch of whorish women hanging around for the sake of having some tailfeather either. He seems like the decent kind of man that works hard, and willing to find the one female he can make an honest woman out of. Real talk. But for now, considering all the hell and high water I've been through, I gotta make this count. I don't want to make the same mistake I made with the last (and unfortunate) relationship I had, that caused me at one point to be closed off, cynical and hardened in my heart for another man to come in and love me wholeheartedly. It took me getting back into church and really seeing that I put up too many walls to keep someone worth something to come in and really love me. Not that I couldn't love myself, because I'm reaching that area in my own life. But I've always been the kind of woman that whatever I have to give, I want to share with someone special. That much of my personality hasn't changed. I would love to be married one day. I've already had the kids, so I'm not too much worried about that part.
Anyway, this guy is definitely having an effect on me in a good way without losing me in the process. I would like to keep it that way. Don't get me wrong, I'm a rider for my man, but this time I'm approaching it from a different angle and I'm learning to love smarter, not harder. But if this is the start of new love for me with this guy, I wanna make sure my I's are dotted and T's are crossed, because any little mistake can cost me a shoulda-woulda-coulda, when it could have been a happily ever after. Only time can and will tell. *Crossing my fingers*
Until Next Post,
Peace & Blessings,
Untouched Jewel
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