Hello everybody,
I'm not doing my usual greeting on this post, because, well.....I'm not feelin it tonight.
I'm sitting here in a state of wonder & continually asking myself......what would life be like if I wasn't here?
That's a question I'm really wanting to know, because it seems like I either don't fit in, or I'm just taking up space in the lives of people who could give 1/5 of a fuck about me. Family included. I wonder if I were to live in total seclusion from EVERYBODY, would I be happier being left alone? So many questions and yet no answers. SMH.
So what that this is a new year, but nothin is changin. People are gettin engaged, married, havin kids, gettin promotions, all that shit. Me? It would be too much like right for somethin to go right for me. I've been a patient person for so much shit for far too long, and yet I'm at square one. Square motherfuckin one. All I know if this is supposed to be a life test, then I've failed miserably.
So with all that said, I guess I will go into IDGAF (I Don't Give A Fuck) mode, cause this is the same shit I get from life and the people in it. I'll just be a miserable bitch the rest of my life and stomp all over people and their feelings like they've done mine. Give motherfuckers an inch, they take a gotdamn football field on your ass. Fuck it, I don't care no more about shit. Nothin. I'm good on everything.
Continue on with your lives.....I'll be out of everyone's hair.
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