Let me give you an example of what I mean: I had made plans to attend an event that most of my friends were gonna be at. I had asked my mother if she could watch my kids while I attended this event. Note: I asked her about this days in advance. She gives me the response of "I'll see about it" *snide attitude voice*. In my head I had said to myself I hope she doesn't decide to spring some stupid sh*t up at the last minute and decide not to do it. The day before the event, my mother hits me with a bombshell talking about "If you go, you need to be back here at 5:30, 'cause I got somethin to do". *Insert the Aunt Esther side eye* So then she tries to soften the sh*t up with "well, I'm sorry". In my mind I'm already thinkin "Bitch, please miss me with that I'm sorry sh*t!" So the moment I responded sarcastically, she's gonna get an attitude and be like "well I coulda just told you no, and that woulda been that". REALLY?!
Ladies and gents, now maybe I'm a little off in the head or just reading too much into it all. But I believe she stalled me out and then tried to side-step me at the same time. My thing is, if she didn't want to do it, why couldn't she just come out and say hell to the naw?! I'd rather hear an honest no, than a half ass answer. So the moment she decided she was gonna pull what I call the Punk Ass card, I had to spring into action to rearrange provisions for my kids. So I called my aunt to see if she would be so kind as to watch my boys, and she was more than willing to do it. So that took care of that problem. Here's where the sh*t storm erupted.........*cues in the whodunit music*
So I went to the event that I had planned on attending, and later on that night, I get a text message from my mother on some bullsh*t. She had the nerve to get mad, cause I took my kids elsewhere. Then she had the nerve to say "they coulda stayed at home". REALLY, HEFFA?! ARE YOU SERIOUS?! The moment I looked at that message I brushed it off, 'cause not one single f*ck was remotely given. Like, how the hell she gonna get mad at me for making other arrangements with MY kids when she herself was pretty much telling me in punk ass translation she didn't wanna do it? This is the pot callin the kettle black so to speak.
Now before anyone jumps down my throat in how I'm speaking on this regarding my mother, let's get some stuff clear........
1. I have respect for her, even when she pisses me off.
2. I don't ask for much from her (especially when it comes to my kids).
3. I rarely go out much due to certain circumstances and time.
Last I checked, family was to help each other out good or bad. Well, at least in my mind that's what I thought was the protocol when it came to the family unit. I understand that everyone has a life outside of the family unit (i.e. friends, associates, etc.), but that's no excuse to treat your own flesh & blood like the sh*t you stepped on in the grass earlier in the day. I find it funny that I did somethin she had no control over & still feels justified to be mad when I don't give her my full disclosure about it. Ummmm....I don't need permission for what I do with my kids when I see fit. I didn't drop them off with strangers, they were with family....family that was willing to do me the favor of watching them. I don't trust everybody with my kids. And in this situation, I'm about to the point of not depending (or hoping if you will) on the word of someone who wants to be wishy-washy about the decisions they make. Can't do it. Like I said earlier, I would rather hear an honest no than a half ass answer.
Ladies and gents, I say all this to say that how can you count on family when they give you a reason not to? How can a person stare you dead in your face on a daily, claim they love you, but if given the right circumstance and situation show you otherwise? I've stuck by family and have tuned a deaf ear and a blind eye on sh*t that should have been addressed long time ago. Now, I'm to the point where if this is the kind of treatment I get from family, I can show better than I can tell how cruel, inconsiderate and selfish I can be as well. I don't do that tit-for-tat sh*t, but trust it would be a lot of feelings gettin hurt like open wounds with salt thrown in them......yeah, that painful.
Love your family, but don't let them be your downfall....
Until Next Post,
Fingaz & Blessins,
Untouched Jewel
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